Dear Diary...

Have you ever just seen a person from across the room and sparks fly. Your wondering what it's like to taste a hot kiss. How you picture yourself just ripping clothes off. You start to calcuate how you begin a conversation with them. Your connect with them in no words but long moments of desire.

I went to the movies today and was sitting across the aisle from this man. Our eyes locked once I sat down. I could feel the heat from my seat. I sense he watched me more then the movie. His sly shy smile almost made me want to talk out loud in the theather. But I kept my quiet and my mind often wondered to his thoughts

As we exited the movies in slightly darken theater with our friends in tow, he gave me his business card. We never never spoke a word, our friends never aware of the connection. So I wonder when or if I call him do I just say I am the girl from the movies.

He never got my name...

Dear Diary..

Talk a little -- Talk a lot ...

I have the love of conversation. I am sure I could talk for hours on any subject. I am so very good at communicating my words. But why is it a struggle when I write a blog. At times, I second guess my topics and re write my thoughts. I wonder if I am being judged for writing what most people wish they could express.

I never found myself like other girls. I always have a ton of girlfriends and guy friends. People often commented, I had a ton of guy friends because they want to sleep with me. As much as that could be true. I have always found that I had wonderful friendships with them. I always found them so protective for me. My entire life I felt I could relate to men.

The world is obsessed with love, sex and money. I would say I am among the obsessed. I spent some of my life confusing the real meaning of all three. I slept with the wrong guys. I love my family. I spent to much money. It took me alot of growing up to know that sex and love are not the same thing. If you cheat, you are cheater. I don't go it was just meaningless sex. If you truly loved that person you would not have cheated. In life people make mistakes and your lucky if your forgiven. Sometimes its harder to forgive yourself.

We live in a world that gets faster and faster. So being a phone sex girl, sometimes I get away from every day life in getting to know my clients. In writing this blog I leave a little window open on my life. Even I sometimes wonder how we all get through the day

Love Kat ox

Dear Diary...


So last Saturday was suppose to be a typical family wedding.  You know dancing with my family and stuffing myself with cocktails and cake.   

I have always had a crush on my cousin's friend Husband.   He and I always talk at parties. He is perfectly my type except the fact he is married,  has two kids and I'm also friends with them.

So I've always walked a thin line with him and I never would even think to ask if he felt the same way.

Well when standing at the bar at the family wedding among the loud DJ music and cocktail drinking.   We start talking about random stuff.    He says "Don't be to surprised if you found me texting you late at night."

His words still play over my mind over and over.  It was like the wedding was in the background and it's all I can hear is that one line.  

I could have just let drunken talk happen and carry on like I never heard it.  But I am not sure If I can.
 
So I am just one text away from setting off what seems to be a sexual time bomb.  

Now the question is do I hit send on this text 

Love Kat ox


  



 

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