Dear Diary..

My friends and I talked about most embarrassing sex moments and everyone had them ranging from using the wrong name to drunken  "can't get it up"  stories.  Every story made me laugh but I had to recall my own.

Many years ago, I had lust for this guy Andrew for months.  Finally on a summer trip to a cabin with friends. I finally gave in to my needs and just ripped his clothes off.   I figured it was very late at night and who would find out everyone had gone to bed.  

Well that is really not what happen at all,  First of all his brother entered the room with out knocking.   So Andrew did try to cover me up with the comforter so he couldn't see anything. But as he pulled the large comforter, he knocked me off the bed and I banged my shoulder on the floor

Well that was embarrassing enough, but some how I landed wrong and had to go to the hospital for a my  shoulder.   The entire cabin woke up and we had to explain why I'm going to a hospital.  Not sure what was more embarrassing the telling of the story or how this guy had to dress me to leave for the hospital.

Came back from the hospital wearing a sling and slept in my own bed.

Well the sex was good while it lasted that night. But I can tell you I never went to bed with him again.  I like it rough at times but that was outright dangerous.

Happy Summer - Kat ox

Dear Diary,

I am Back ....So did you Miss Me  ?

I just watched that movie Friends with Benefits and No Strings Attached .. 

Is the world trying to tell me something. ?  Of course Hollywood makes them love stories in the end. But honestly if I am telling the truth no love comes from this but some drama.

At some point --one of you will want more or less from this arrangement and then all the benefits go out the window.

I had a "fuck buddy" once and it was rolling along very nicely until his brother was getting married and he needed a date. Then his parents loved me and after that every time I saw him he would talk about his life. 

Before I knew it I was going to his mother's day brunch and birthday parties for his friends. It went from fuck buddies to his girlfriend over night.

So if I had to advise anyone on this matter I say go with a one night stand

Happy Summer,    Love Kat

Dear Diary....

I go thru stages of obsession with stuff, lip gloss, sour patch kids, flip flops, glittery tank tops, sex toys, ipods, boy shorts and power drinks.  I just really find something I like and I just go with it. But sometimes it just sticks with me.

I  have a huge obsession with porn. I always make jokes, I use it as a learning tool. No matter how good you are in bed you can learn to be better. What one guy will think is very hot the next guy will think it's not.  I often found I dirty talk more in bed if they do, it's odd how a new partner can sexual add to or repress your needs or desires. The two of you start to build a sex life together.  Sometimes your wants and  fantasy don't match each other. With each sexual partner it's like a new adventure

I am not saying you need to run out  and screw the world. But you do need to find the ride that best fits your needs.

Get out there and find the ride, sometimes you must be this big to go on this ride comes in handy !!

Happy Weekend-- Kat

Dear Diary. Just got a pair of shoes I ordered in the mail and this is the first thing that popped in to my head.     As much as I like a guy to push me down and tell me he owns me. He can tell me he's going to use me any way he wants. But beware two can play this game.  I also have a demanding side myself.  Once I put on the right heels or boots for a man to just worship the ground I walk on. I click into aggressive little minx. I am turned on just making a man crumble at my feet for attention. You have to let him know who is in charge. Drag him around in a dog collar or make him pay to cum with his wallet. Spending his money while he's is blowing a load. I am not the kind of girl who just loves pets but watching a man do anything for me is the kind of pet this girl could get used to having.    - Love Kat ox --

Dear Diary...

did you miss me?

Everyone's doing it?

Do you really think people have sex as much as they say they do ?

I am very honest about my sex life. It's odd people lie about their sex life's. They lie about how many partners - They lie about how big your cock is - They lie on how long they last in the sack ! Do you think we lie because we are afraid to be honest. Yes I have to admit, not everyone is a porn star.

Do you think it makes you cool if you have a higher number of sex partners then others. I wont lie if you tell me you only slept with one person your whole life, I might think your lying or strange. Maybe I should be saying WOW, that is great you found that person right away.

Why do people think if you have a phone sex line that your lining men up around the corner. Just sucking dick of every guy like a fantasy football team. Yes I can understand the fantasy of all of the hot times. But I like being a regular girl with a dirty mouth and a fun time.

Just like High School, you will find the class president, the drama queen and cheerleader. You just grow older and new roles happen.

 But I can tell you one thing, Everyone was not doing it then and everyone is not doing it now.

 

Dear Diary

 

For the love of Birth control, It's funny I am all for not having a baby right now in my life. But why is that when your in the heat in the moment you can't bring up protection. I know it kills the mood.

 

Would you rather have dirty hot sex with someone then ask to make sure your both safe. I know I am guilty of this crime. No worry you only get a nine month sentence when you're not careful.

Why do we risk a nine months pregnancy and life time of child raising over a five minute conversation on a condom.  Is it that hard to ask someone to cover up. Even after watching all the after school specials and lifetime movies. I still might take a risk in the sack and just make them "pull out" in time

Now they have what's call the morning after pill, that sounds like something I would take after a hangover. Can you image just keeping a bottle of morning after pills with the aspirin. I think that would give a whole new meaning to taking pills.

 

So cover up and let it sizzle !

 

Happy Monday -- Kat ox

Dear Diary....

 

Well I am shocked, just very shocked..

I am almost speechless and for a phone girl, that is pretty hard to do. I usually have so much to say !!

Lately my friends and I have been talking about how many sexual partners each of us had over the years. I am just floored that the numbers are lower compared to mine.

Mine was not the highest of my group of friends. BUT WOW.. I was shocked maybe cause I thought I was  average for my group of friends.  But I was on the middle to high group. I had more sex them most of my friends.

At first, I was like did we not all go to the same college?, My god what happen did you strike out every time we went to the same events.  Did you not hook up when we just to Vegas last time. I must have missed something I just swear to god I thought you might all be more active.

So I leave you with this, maybe your friends are not having as much sex as you. Maybe you just think your friends are getting laid. But I guess you have no idea what happens behind closed doors.

Happy Hump Day --Kat ox

 

Dear Diary..

Talk a little -- Talk a lot ...

I have the love of conversation. I am sure I could talk for hours on any subject. I am so very good at communicating my words. But why is it a struggle when I write a blog. At times, I second guess my topics and re write my thoughts. I wonder if I am being judged for writing what most people wish they could express.

I never found myself like other girls. I always have a ton of girlfriends and guy friends. People often commented, I had a ton of guy friends because they want to sleep with me. As much as that could be true. I have always found that I had wonderful friendships with them. I always found them so protective for me. My entire life I felt I could relate to men.

The world is obsessed with love, sex and money. I would say I am among the obsessed. I spent some of my life confusing the real meaning of all three. I slept with the wrong guys. I love my family. I spent to much money. It took me alot of growing up to know that sex and love are not the same thing. If you cheat, you are cheater. I don't go it was just meaningless sex. If you truly loved that person you would not have cheated. In life people make mistakes and your lucky if your forgiven. Sometimes its harder to forgive yourself.

We live in a world that gets faster and faster. So being a phone sex girl, sometimes I get away from every day life in getting to know my clients. In writing this blog I leave a little window open on my life. Even I sometimes wonder how we all get through the day

Love Kat ox

Dear Diary..

 

I'm a girl who likes to be on top of stuff,  but I don't like to be on top. 

 

You heard me,  It's a sexual position that does nothing for me.  Maybe cause I don't have an orgasm.  I can't even watch it in porn to get turned on. 

 

But I am a fan of the Reverse cowgirl maybe that's because I like it when I get a spanking.

 

I often joke, I do bad things just for the spanking.  God only knows if that was true I'd be bad all day long.  Something about a hot red mark just heats me up.

 

So I'll leave the top to others and just keep ass slapping sex for myself.

 

oxox- Kat

Dear Diary,

So you are feeling a little mad or just crazed. There is such a thing as playful rough sex without going to the hospital. I for one like a little aggressive sex.  Give yourself a full mind and body work out.

Toss your partner around, pull some hair, slap that ass and just make yourself feel it.  Nothing more exhilarating then just going for and begging for satisfaction.  You really can make this fun or just fast furious fuck fest.

I always hear people say they use a safe word during sex in case someone wants to stop.   Trust me If I was not having a good time.  My partner would not need a safe word. He would never get laid again if he can't tell how I am reacting to pleasure and pain.

I'm so ready for the weekend -- Bring it on !

Love Kat ox

Dear Diary..

Please tell me I am not the only one who is in the middle of sex and thinks of someone else or different hot sexual moment.

Sometimes I just can't help myself, I am getting my hair pulled by one guy but thinking of other. Everyone must have that one hot sexual moment that replay's in your head. It brings you to a orgasm just thinking about it.

I remember dating this guy Kenny when I was high school, He and I could kiss for hours and it was as hot as sun. I recall this one time.

I was wearing a necklace with silver catholic cross on it. He lightly grabbed the cross and pulled it slowly towards him. As my neck just got to drawn to him so he could kiss me . It was the first time my panties got wet with just one touch.  It was also the first time I knew I like to be pulled into being a bad girl

I often wonder what happen to that guy. He just had a way about him that made me just melt. He was the first guy I ever had sex with on my parents bed. Boy did that get us turned on just knowing we might get caught.  

Maybe I should really blame him, I loved being a bad girl from then on..

Happy Friday-- oxox 

Dear Diary..

So I've been going to the gym for a month.  Let me be clear my idea of working out used to be dancing with cocktails on Friday night.  Then dunking my chicken fingers in dipping sauce.  It was one hell of a work out.

So the first few times at the gym I just went and did my thing. I'd come home exhausted.

Then a hot girl started flirting with me.  She ended up being a little prude because once I started putting my moves on her,  she now just flashes a shy smile and works out.   If you can't handle it don't start it

So I started running on the treadmill the last few days I noticed the same guy run's next to me. He runs to impress me, you would think he was about to win a marathon tonight.  

He needs a clue,  impressing me would be bending me over in the parking lot of the gym. Because nothing turns me on like being taken in the heat of the moment

So now when I go to the gym I check out everyone  It just fuels me and my sexual appetite.

Now that's why I work out !!

--K oxox

Dear Diary..

I'm the kind of girl who likes it hot, But this heat wave has to stop. I feel like I am living in a microwave oven.

I was cleaning out my bedroom this week and found a pair of my sexy lace underwear behind the bureau.  

The only way it could have gotten there is my favorite kind of heat.  When you get home and your so sexually charged up you rip off the clothes. You find clothes just tossed and hanging all over the room. One time If found my bra on top of the fish tank.

Something about being wanted so bad, brings on the good heat.  So that is the heat I rather have right now

Stay Cool - K xox

Dear Diary..

My holiday weekend was so great.  I feel like I'm in recovery mode now since late last night.  Fireworks still remind me of sex, maybe to many things do.  Sometimes sex sparkles and goes off like a big bang and other times it goes up but you don't get what your expecting.

Recently I was told my bed is like a large marshmallow. I have a large puffy white comforter and a ton a fluffy pillows you just can sink yourself on my very soft mattress.  I should call it the toasted marshmallow when I heat things up in my bedroom. 

I'm really not a girl who dwells on relationship titles. I have a good head on my shoulders. I know where I stand all the time with guys. I don't need a title to make myself feel important. When people say hey what a cute couple, I always want to say we are just friends with benefits for shock factor.  I hate people who just assume your relationship status.

Relationship are what you make of them and how you feel when you are them. Don't let titles define you.  Just live in the moment.

Rock this Monday -- Kat ox

Dear Diary...

 

If you like Pina coladas, And getting caught in the rain...

 

Well I'm happy it's summer time, but it has not felt like a real summer yet. Maybe I just want long, hot sunny summer days.  Of course, it looks like its gonna rain as the weekend approaches.

 

I saw the most bizarre article recently saying it's bad Sex etiquette if you don't ask about coming on her face, or in mouth, without asking her first.

I see both ways of this "cumming attraction." Talk about a buzz kill when you ask and she says no. What do you do with it then? Just come up with new places till she says yes.

 

I also see the girl's point. Maybe she's not in the mood for a facial. If you're sleeping with someone and you don't know what they really like or dislike does it really even matter?

 

I only have really one pet peeve in the bedroom and if you break it, I am pretty much turned off. I am not sure you could do anything to recover from it that night.  

I can't stand when a guy will push my head/face down to his cock like I have no idea where your cock is located. Trust me, I am going to get there. And if I don't want to blow you, the push of my head won't help at all. As far as your hands on my face or head while I am going down.  I am fine with it- but never rush me.  I know when it's time to blow.

 

Love K ox

Dear Diary,
 

In watching television and porn it just crossed my mind that it just gives you high expectations.

 

You're watching television and couples fall in love. The romance level is so high it makes you wonder why you're drinking red wine from Costco with a bag of cheese puffs. They are toasting with dom perignon, nibbling on strawberries on a bed of rose petals.

 

Then after my tv shows, I'm watching porn and girls are slobbering cock and begging you to invite buddies over to fill her up.  She's pounded so hard I thought she might break in two parts.

 

So, I'm all for love and sex but sometimes expecting what you're watching is not what you're going to get.

 

Make your own Fairy Tale

 

Happy Friday ox

Dear Diary..

Happy Friday

It's that time again.....  Man I wish I was talking about sex 

Let's be clear --  I have nothing against marriage.   

I can't even count how many bridesmaid appearances and weddings I'm attending within the next year.  I am starting to have nightmares of unflattering bridesmaid dresses and dancing the YMCA with my friends drunk Uncle.

The only perk in being in a wedding.  Maybe you can have a sex with the someone in the wedding party.  Because by the time the wedding happens.  Everyone is stressed from listening to the Bridezilla and it just seems fitting.

The last wedding I attended, My handsome date passed out after the open bar reception.  So I stuffed myself with wedding cake, drank the mini bar and watched a couple hook up at the pool.   It was like watching live porn, but I was to far away to hear the actual sounds.

So I am off to get fitted for a bridesmaid dress -  let's hope it has easy access, I plan on getting devious in my dress.

Dear Diary, 

It only takes me a few minutes to decide to have sex with someone, It only takes me seconds to change my mind. It's just that simple. I am easily turned on and just as easily turned off.

Maybe because I am very good at communicating. I am easily turned off by a guy who can't carry an every day conversation. If you can't talk to me outside of the bedroom, how can you talk to me in the bedroom.

The art of sex is just as important to me as the words he uses to get my panties down. Once you get my wet panties down finds ways to me tick and I'm then always just wanting more

Happy Hump Day ~~  Love Kat ox

Dear Diary,

Everyone has sexual technique they feel they could work on. It's most people just can't be honest with themselves.  How many times have you heard -- I am good in bed.  

I know mine is being on top, I feel like I don't get as sexual aroused. I'm sure I need to improve my strength in my hips to stay on top till I explode. 

I love the feeling of being on top as I'm taking control of my partner. So I found this new device at when shopping for new sex toys

I am waiting for my sex stool to arrive, it says it has a great bounce to it.  I am going to bounce my way to having an orgasm on top.

Dear Diary..

That awkward moment when you run in to someone you slept with and your friends had no idea. When everyone can tell just after the person leaves that something must have happened  

No matter how much you deny anything happen no one really believes you.  Something about sexual chemistry no matter much you try and hide it.  That feeling rivals love and lust to me.  It's so strong it makes you want to
rip off your clothes

I saw on Mad Men this week, when Don says just as he rips off her clothes before sex - "you want this", now I find that a turn on when I guy knows I want so badly he lets me know he can feel it

As much as I like being control cause I consider myself a huge cock tease, I like a guy who knows when its time to get aggressive. He should know when it's time for hair pulling and spankings. 

Sometimes a little pain can be so much pleasure

enjoy your Tuesday ! oxox